Wakeup

Today I woke up needing water, needing food and in pain. A lot of days i wake up with discomfort. I am not a morning person.

summer

Hearing about sergeys trip makes me want explore. I want to go on many long trips that have long drives. this is summer and ive read in books that it is the time to explore and hangout. I want that.

tough

I dont think you people understand how hard it is to exist. It takes a lot of effort to focus and stay balanced. My whole existence feels like I am walking on a wire ready to topple over any minute. This is hard and tiring.

drugs

I feel a feeling of relief and calm because I do not feel irritants that build up quickly and overflow unstoppably.  I feel relaxed and my brain feels less frantic. I do not like when this feeling leaves me because i feel irritated again. I am hungry by the way.